Today has been harder than expected. This could be to do with the fact that I did not gradually cut down to limit my intake before taking the plunge, and also because this time I was on rollies and not tailor made fags, which means that they are stronger , unfiltered and obviously more damaging! I have been pulling my hair out today. Realised I have had many moments in a day punctuated by a ciggerette. I kept getting the urge to have a fag every time I ate, drank, stopped walking, worked at the computer, had chewing gum, ad infinitum. I have been so tempted to dig out my tobacco pouch and rizzlars from the dustbin and so on the verge of emotional explosion ( not sure if its anger, anxiety or weepyness) Once I get today over with I would have acheived over 24 hours smoke free. One step at a time- that's all I can do.
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